i've been thinking. sort of.
last night, without really knowing the reason why, i told the tale to maddog & madbitch. not really expecting their reaction to be any different, maddog as a guy also concurred with the other wise minds i've spoken to that the guy is a bastard. JERK - that was what he said.
they both agree, that even if one day he comes back like what i sometimes fantasize about, i cannot allow him to come back into my life. madbitch says, that i have to move out from the shadows of this. becos only then can the next one come. maddog says, the only reason why he will come back is becos the other one kicked him out. gee.. isnt that what uncle wang was telling me too?
tonight on facebook, noticed an update on his posting that got me thinking. hmm.. 7.30 pm, how come he's online? is he in udon? laos? bangkok? but funny.. there is no urge to call him. i do think & wonder about the possibilities of his current location, yet the curiosity to call & get the answer is no longer there.
perhaps i've finally come to realise that there are more important things in life. my life. ^^
